taking a jump.

hiding behind things in life seems to make everything easier at the time but i’m ready to come out and try to live life for everything its worth and don’t let anything hold me back. my past limits what i think i am strong enough to handle but i want to be able to handle so much more. about a month ago i entered a relationship i truthfully thought would never happen. with it i have found what i think love is again, i feel so complete when i’m in his arms and i always want to be next to him. i don’t want to ruin it by being too scared to be loved and to get hurt, but like they say its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. when i’m with him i get butterflies in my stomach and i cant help but always smile, i don’t want to lose him or that feeling. my relationship with my mom seems to currently be on the up and up but with that usually comes a downfall, i really hope our relationship is past that. i really don’t know why people can have so much faith in a god and leave everything in his hands when there is so much wrong in the world. how can there be a god with a war going on and families starving across the world, what kind of god is that and if he is there why believe in such scum? i wish people would realize they are in control in their lives and they don’t need to go to church every sunday to reach their full potential.

when i feel like this
when i get so in to myself
and lose track of where i’m going
and then lose track of how to get going again
feel myself slowing down
fell myself turning round
is this taken
when i fell like this
when i get so sick
tell myself, where are you going now
without me and not knowing then
that we are slowing down
we rise, we run around
and tell me that
i’m taken then
tell me that i’m yours